An Amazing Gift

See that man on the left there? He stopped by our home today to do business with Cooper’s dad. When he walked in…Cooper gasped. And pointed. And waved. Now knowing my sweet boy, I know that he will continue to wave until said person waves back. Sometimes, people don’t notice him because he is unable to speak. Or they are busy. Or they get uncomfortable by the bigger ten year old boy waving so intently. I’ve seen it all. So, I often gently say…‘this is Cooper and he is autistic.…

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I See You Mama, But Do You See Me?

Dear mama with normal children, “Normal? What is normal?” you might be asking. “Is that even politically correct?” Honestly, I’m not sure because I’m tired. And I don’t spend my free time on political jargon. And I definitely don’t sleep well. And most of my waking hours, I’m caring for someone else or finding resources that will hopefully make our life a little bit easier someday. Someday…a day that feels more and more like a unicorn lately. You see, I’m a special needs mama to a 16-year-old son. And no,…

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Wanted: That Mom Friend

I’m looking for a mom friend. You know, ‘that’ mom friend. That friend that needs no explanation because our worlds twirl within the same circles. The one who I can call at any hour of the night, because both of our families are wide awake anyhow. The one who puts the same amount of miles on her car, from searching every store, for that specific package of fruit snacks, or brand of pizza, or shape of chicken nugget. The mom friend that is fluent in a familiar list of prescribed…

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The Best Birthday Gift

This morning I walked downstairs to my sweet boy sitting on the couch, surrounded by his treasures. He waved. It was quick though. He was very busy watching his shows. He takes his show watching very serious. Especially on weekend mornings. ‘Cooper, it’s mom’s birthday today!’ I said. Now I don’t know what I expected. Not words of course. But a cheer. A smile. A gasp. But nothing. He looked back down. It stung. Like a tiny bee sting or a poke in the side. But the pain is duller…

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My Autistic Son Isn’t Giving Me a Hard Time

I read a quote a while back, at a pivotal time in my life really, that read… My child isn’t giving me a hard time…he is having a hard time. We had just finished up with an incredibly hard day. One that involved being out in the community. A ‘place’ that can feel scary to families like mine sometimes. Our son is autistic. He has autism. He was diagnosed at age 3. Back then so much of his diagnosis felt like a mystery, one that we were so desperately trying…

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They Will Always Have Each Other

I don’t know what it’s like to have a sibling with special needs. I only know what I see and feel as the mom. And compare to what I experienced growing up. These boys are two years apart. 10 and 8. When Cooper was diagnosed with autism, I wondered and I worried…about everything. Sawyer was not quite 2 years old yet. What did the future hold for them. Sawyer would follow his older brother around the house, attempting to force his way into his world. He wanted to play. He…

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Waiting for Baby Sister

I can’t believe in 4 weeks or less there will another baby to love. And a girl this time. When this photo was taken, Harbor was less than a week old. Cooper still hadn’t touched him and was very apprehensive of him. But he was just fine with snuggling up to Sawyer to get this photo. Today, I often say that Harbor is bridge in between these two. He demands love and attention from both. And rules the house. And now a baby sister. The boys are definitely excited but…

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To The Heroes At Our Therapy Center, Thank you!

Our ABA Center has truly been a blessing in disguise, they’re our unsung heroes. From the diagnostic doctor, the Clinical Directors, BCBA’s, RBT’s, ST’s, OT’s that have ALL made a tremendous impact on Jessa’s Journey and have paved the way for her future. We truly can’t thank y’all enough…you all are HEROES in our and Jessa’s eyes!! Jessa has officially been attending Action Behavior Centers – ABA Therapy for Autism for 3 years this April! It’s fitting since it’s also Autism Acceptance and Awareness Month. It’s been life-changing for all…

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To The Heroes Who Love Our Children

Along this journey of navigating autism you send the largest part of your heart out into the world and pray that they are loved and cared for. You also meet some of the most amazing heroes disguised as teachers and para-professionals. You see the blonde standing in the back? That’s our “Miss Kaci” and never have I felt such gratitude or such an instant connection for someone who was a complete stranger to us less than a year ago. To those who love our children despite challenging behavior. Who meet…

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An Unsung Hero Whispers ‘I Am Proud of You’

What is an unsung hero to you? Someone who quietly reaches out with a rescuing hand in time or need? Someone who gives you perspective before you have the chance to find it? When we started to have meetings with our son’s Montessori School about how our son wasn’t fitting into the school program, I began to feel something I was unfamiliar with. A feeling that sat and still sits quietly in the background. That feeling that things were on the horizon, as I felt a shift of worry from…

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