Posts Tagged ‘grief’
Learning a Very Important Lesson
Someday, when your autistic child is three or four or five, you will learn a very important lesson. You will learn that it isn’t about you. Or what you are missing out on. It’s a very hard lesson to learn. At least it was for me. Because it didn’t make it any easier for my heart. By that age, you will have went through many birthday parties with a child who doesn’t care. You will plan the party, invite the guests, buy the presents, and your child will be oblivious…
Read MoreI Used to Hide my Son from the World
I used to hide my son from the world. That sounds terrible, I know. But there was a brief period of time that I felt better by keeping him cooped up. In my house, I didn’t need to feel scared. I didn’t need to compare. I didn’t need to constantly think and ponder and wonder what the future held. In my house, he was my perfect, beautiful child. There was nothing wrong with him. He was happy and that’s all that mattered. I remember the first time I realized something…
Read MoreMaking the Brave Choices
In the very early days of Mark’s autism diagnosis, I found myself in a little, darkened observation room, perched in front of a two-way mirror watching Mark during his special group speech program alongside other parents, who I would learn later were at the exact same spot on their journey. One of these parents has become a dear friend of mine, and as she put it when we first began chatting, she had unpacked her bags in the land of grief. She grieved what could have, should have, and what…
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