Posts Tagged ‘autism’
It's the Middle that Counts the Most
I spent the weekend with my kids and husband and our puppies. Jamie and I even snuck in a date for margaritas. We were walking on air until we came home to dog pee on the carpet. **SIGH** All in all though, it was a perfect weekend. Maybe it has to do with spring coming. Maybe it’s because Cooper is getting easier every day or maybe it’s a whole lot of self growth. I guess I really don’t know. But I’ll take it. I cleaned my house 17 times and then cleaned it…
Read MoreToday is the Day.
Today is the day that I will love Cooper the most. Today he needs me more than ever. Today I am his advocate. His protector. His cheerleader. Today I refuse to wish that he was different. I will be proud of how far we have come and accept that we need help from the school and teachers and others. Today, I will accept that I can’t do this alone. Today I will go easy on myself. I will wear something I won’t sweat through. I know that I will be running…
Read MorePostive Updates
I just posted about changes in Cooper. I wanted to go into a little more detail because I am such a proud mama. I have blogged before about how picking up the boys from daycare can be a sad point in my day. It’s hard to see other kiddos the same age as cooper talking. It crushes me actually. So much, that there are times where I dread going. Sad, right? On Thursday, as I walked up to the house I saw that another mom was holding Cooper. He was hugging her and…
Read MoreGet Through Today. Better Days Are Coming.
Cooper is back. My sweet, smart boy is back. I know that sounds crazy right? Cooper has been a little monster for the last month or so. You can even tell by the theme of my blogs. A little over a month ago my posts were hopeful. Then, they changed. More fear, desperation. More anger. Things changed last week. I am so excited I have a smile on my face as I type it. Thank you God. He’s playing again. Laughing, ‘chatting’ non-stop. So much that he woke us up…
Read MoreIt's The Anger That Kills Me The Most.
I have been obsessed with autism/apraxia/SPD research lately. I don’t know why it just hit me so hard but lately it’s all I can think about. Cooper is such a mystery and doesn’t seem to fall into any one category. So, I have been scouring blogs looking for Cooper’s twin and I can’t seem to find one. I keep looking for a social 3 year old with no words who has delays. No go on that end but I keep finding all of these amazing moms that are so much farther than…
Read MoreWith The Good Comes The Sad.
Certain things are getting better with Cooper and certain things are getting worse. And because of that we can’t seem to get our bearings. We NEED a language breakthrough so badly. Anything really. Just something to show us that it’s going to get better. I have lots of positive from the weekend. Cooper will now sit at the kitchen table in an actual chair and eat a meal. This. Is. Huge. Up until this point Cooper would never ever sit still unless he was in a booster seat. I am…
Read MoreThe Funny Things People Say.
I had a conversation over the phone with someone this morning who is very close to our situation. (This picture shows my face during the conversation.) They know the ins and the outs. And I don’t feel comfortable saying who at this point. And really, that isn’t important. What is important is the odd things people say to me. I wouldn’t say that I am secretive about Cooper (I have a very public blog!) but I also don’t advertise it or look for advice from people outside my inner circle. I bet…
Read MoreI Can't Run or Hide From This
I am having a scared day. I am so freaking scared that I want to crawl under my desk and cry. In the fetal position. I can’t take this worry anymore. I made the appointment with the developmental pediatrician. CHECK. Being ok with the 8 month waiting list. CHECK. I spoke with the early childhood screening woman and found out that because Cooper was part of the Help Me Grow program (early intervention) he can’t be screened until he is 3 years 6 months. And they don’t do screenings in…
Read MoreWishing Your Life Away
As I was getting dressed for work this morning I tried on 6 or 7 shirts, two pairs of pants and multiple sweaters. And no, it’s not that I LOVE my fashionable clothes. It’s the opposite. I am still working on losing this last 10 pounds of baby weight that feels the need to stick around and NOTHING fits me right. And there is nothing I hate more than being uncomfortable at work. I keep telling myself that I will buy new clothes once I get to my ‘goal’ weight.…
Read MoreFind People That Understand. It Will Help You More Than You Know.
I can’t say enough how much blogging has helped me with my Super Cooper journey. Honestly, I can’t even put it into words. But what I can say is there are some pretty amazing people out there. I have to thank Life in the Autism Lane, for her absolutely breathtaking post this morning. She gets it. She gets me and she gets Cooper. And we haven’t even met. Just knowing that she is out there means so much. Click HERE to read her post about her son. It’s powerful and…
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