Please Take the Time To Listen To My Child.

I read something on the Apraxia Facebook page that brought me to tears. I have voiced SO MANY of my worries about Cooper’s future ranging from school to bullying to interacting with others. And the worry doesn’t stop there. I want and need Cooper to be popular and loved. I want and need him to have friends and be successful in relationships. What mom wouldn’t want these things? I read a post on the Apraxia Facebook page that brought me to tears. I was just sick after reading it. It went something  like…

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Occupational Therapy and Super Human Mommy Strength

In the meeting on Wednesday, Cooper’s speech therapist recommended that Cooper start Occupational Therapy. And she even recommended a place to go. Woo-Hoo! I called right away on Wednesday and made an appointment for Friday to meet with her. Well, Friday morning Cooper woke up pissed off at the world. He wanted Oreo cookies for breakfast and was really confused as to why he couldn’t have them. So, the whining started early. And my patience got worn early. And I was worried about his behavior during the appointment. Coop’s and I left…

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The Evaluation is Done.

Quick post today. Cooper had his evaluation with the psychologist yesterday. Thank God that is over. We meet next Wednesday to get her feedback. According to her and his daycare provider the visit went well. Cooper made perfect eye contact the whole time, greeted parents and greeted the psychologist. Oh, and followed directions. But, what I didn’t hear is how he interacted with the other kids. And I was too scared to ask through email. So, Wednesday it is. Will this wait every end??? I wanted to share a little…

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What If My Son Never Talks?

I tell myself on a daily basis that Cooper might not talk. I have too…for me. (This is one of my freak out posts.) I am pretty sure it is a defense mechanism. I have even started saying it to my parents. It’s like I almost need to shock them or something. But not to be mean or hurtful. I need them to get it. I need them to understand that this is really, really serious. On a scale of 1 to Oh My God this is Oh My God plus one.…

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A Big Week Ahead

We had another excellent weekend. I could start getting used to this! I’ve heard from lots of other moms that their kids really started to grow up at age 3 and I can say that I am seeing lots of changes in Cooper. We had our big family Christmas on Saturday at a water park and let’s say we learned that Cooper is half-fish. He spent so much time in the water I didn’t know if the pruning would ever go away. I get very, very nervous for events like this…

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Judgey Eyes

Having a son who doesn’t talk puts a big target on my back. Cooper is different and yet he looks like a completely adorable, average boy. And in most cases he is. You would never know by looking at him that he doesn’t say any words. There are a lot of situations where people stare at us. For example, Cooper does a lot of high picture ‘talking’ in all vowels. Often, it is very loud. If we are at Target or wherever he will point and ‘talk’ away. Usually, he…

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I Am A Fixer

I am a fixer. I always have been. Problem solving is my thing. I work as a Project Manager and my job is to tackle multiple projects at once. Someone will come to me and say, figure out a way to make this work better. And I dig in. I love it. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately and I realize that I can’t fix Cooper. I can’t change him. No matter how much I pray or hope or wish…he is who he is. And that scares the…

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Now That's How You Throw A 3rd Birthday Party!

Well, we survived the 3rd birthday party. No meltdowns…from any of us! Including me! I think I officially held my breath for 2 straight days. My anxiety for the actual party had really been building beforehand. I was scared that Cooper wouldn’t care about any of it. Or even worse, hit himself in the head. Sometimes, when he gets really stressed out, he will smack his head. It breaks my heart every time he does it. And he knows he will get a reaction so he will do it again.…

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