Today I Will Trust
I get so scared sending him anywhere alone. But I have to trust. I have to trust in good and kind and grace.
I have to trust that people will know the yellow haired boys name is Cooper because he won’t be able to say it under pressure.
I have to trust that they will ask him if he wants a drink of water because he won’t think to ask.
I have to trust that they will wipe his mouth after he eats and adjust his waistband after he goes to the bathroom.
I have to trust that they will listen. And lead him when he needs to go somewhere. And hug him when he’s overwhelmed.
I have to trust that they see him and believe in him.
I have to trust because he can’t tell them if he’s hurt or if someone is mean to him. And sit on the floor with him if he’s scared.
I have to trust because today is his first day of summer school. He has been ready for hours. He packed his paper and his DVDs.
We tried new shoes but that was just too much for such a big day.
He’s also excited that it’s going to rain today. He loves rain. He wants to visit a train museum this summer. And he has a brand new baby sister. Swimming is his favorite thing to do.
The brown paper is his favorite. And Lots and Lots of Trains is his most treasured DVD. It’s in his bag. And if he gets scared ask him about fire trucks. Or Dora the Explorer. She is his friend.
He would tell us all this stuff if he could. Like I used to do when I would write a paragraph about my summer. But he can’t. So I will. I will tell you. And I will trust that you will listen to me.
Please listen. Listen to his sounds and his signs and his hands. If he likes you he will hug you. And tease you. But you have to give him time.
Today I will trust once again. I will trust strangers with my most precious gift. I will hold my breath and pray the phone doesn’t ring.
He’s so excited.
Oh, and whales. Ask him about whales. He wants to meet one so badly.
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