What Brings Him Joy

I think a lot about the things that make this kid happy. And bring him joy. Because for a lot of years, the list was pretty small. It’s gotten bigger though, thankfully. If I was to build a world for him, one that was entirely for him…what would it look like? Well, it would be full of color. Bright reds and blues and yellows. Our clothes would all be bright too. Our houses and the objects inside as well. Music would always be playing. Happy, fun, LOUD music. We would…

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The Parts of Autism Only We See

I’m writing this at 10 minutes to midnight. I’m lying in my bed with one arm trapped under my 16 kg, 3 year old son, his eyes have finally closed again but his breathing is still jumpy and uneven after his wake up. It is a regular occurrence for my son to wake up screaming and inconsolable. He wakes up so heartbreakingly confused and will often repeat the same phases which make no sense to me but it’s something that must be going over and over in his mind as…

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