Posts Tagged ‘sibling guilt’
The Guilt I Carry Because I was the Neurotypical Sibling
For most 18 year olds, leaving home to go to college is a rollercoaster of emotions. This next chapter can bring feelings of excitement at the new freedoms ahead or nervousness to leave parents and the comfort of home. And while I had those typical emotions, I had one feeling that far outweighed all of the others. Guilt. What could an 18-year-old, ready to take on college in the pursuit of her future career, possibly have to feel guilty about? I was leaving my brother behind. My big brother, who…
Read MoreThe Things We’re Not Supposed to Say
The things we’re not supposed to say. I brought my son Sawyer to skate night tonight. A school event at a local roller skating rink. There was pizza and music and arcade games. Kindergarten through fifth grade. Families. Siblings. So many kids. I laced up his roller blades and watched him be a little boy. Skating way too fast. Being silly. Telling stories. Playfully pushing friends. Dancing. Doing the limbo. He has a social life. Friends. He’s growing up. As I sat there watching, holding my baby tight, I was…
Read MoreWhen Do We Stop Trying?
When do you stop trying to do the normal stuff? Is it like introducing a new food to a toddler? I read years ago about weaning a baby and introducing food saying you should try your child with something 8-10 times before you accept they don’t like it. Is life the same? Or am I being cruel? We are in our last couple of days of our vacation (we call it a holiday). I have tried my best not to push my son’s boundaries too much but just enough to…
Read MoreSibling Guilt
On our summer vacation, I had an epiphany. Well, actually, I had a meltdown, then I had the epiphany. First the meltdown: In July, our family of four took the risk and went on a family vacation. It was so needed. Our past spring had been our toughest season yet since beginning the autism journey ten years ago. We were all worn out. To our relief our vacation was off to a great start. We had seen more peace, less meltdowns, than in the past five months. We were unpacking…
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