Super Cooper is Growing Up

I’ve spent the last few weeks feeling sorry for myself and for our situation. To put a date on it I have been struggling since Easter. I think it’s all so real now. Most likely because of all the evaluations. They are so brutal. And, of course, I know a label/diagnosis is coming and I can’t run anymore. But, it’s time to dig out of this funk. I am ready.  I will throw this kid on my back and climb up a damn mountain if I have too. Being sad doesn’t get you anywhere. And…

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Bye Bye Nuk's

There are few things in life that Cooper LOVES as much as his Nuk. There have been times when he has been known to have 3 or 4 at one time. Well, this kid just turned 3 and it’s time to say Bye-Bye. Now, please don’t pass judgment for allowing him to have a Nuk this late in life. To say Cooper is a challenge is putting it mildly. So, when night time (or nap time) comes I usually don’t have a lot of fight left in me.  And every single night…

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How Can You Hate Everything?

“It’s not humanly possible that you hate everything Cooper. Unless, you aren’t human and you were sent to this earth to make me insane. Then, I guess yes, it might be possible.” Then I looked deep into his eyes to see if maybe he was indeed an alien. Nope. No sign. This is something I said to Cooper yesterday on the way home from his first occupational Therapy appointment. Let me remind you that this place is amazing and the therapist is an angel. An actual angel. She had the…

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Eek…I Overshared! And Now You Know The Real Me!

I am totally having mommy guilt about oversharing yesterday. Think of it as drinking too much and being embarrassed the next day about what you said and did. We’ve all been there. At least I know I have! (One too many times) Except yesterday I wasn’t drinking. I was just plain, old sad. And worn down. And needed help. A good night’s sleep reminded me that life could be a lot worse. If I was to sum up Cooper’s behaviors I can link every single one to lack of communication. He…

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My Toddler's Behaviors Are Out Of Control

Today is a bad day. Honestly, I think the days have been progressively getting worse for a while now and I just didn’t want to admit it. I want Cooper to improve so badly that I think I have been lying to myself. I read a quote on Pinterest that said, “It doesn’t actually get easier…you just get used to it.” Ding, Ding, Ding! That’s my life exactly. Cooper’s behaviors are out of control. I am not going to sugar coat this on my blog. I sugar coat it in…

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Weekend Update

Another great weekend for Cooper! Well, minus his church skills. Wow. Let’s just say that kid CANNOT sit still. We took Cooper to a McDonald’s Play Palace on Saturday. Big night. We have brutal cabin fever at our house so any outing sounded great. This was our first time at a play place so we didn’t know what Coop would do. Well, I am pretty sure he died and went to heaven. He ran and jumped and loved every sensory overload part of it. I climbed in the tunnels for…

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Another Big Week

Cooper had a great weekend. We worked on potty training again. Gong show I tell you. Jamie had Cooper sit on the potty for 60 minutes and he didn’t pee. We fed him juice and milk in hopes that he would eventually just pee so he would understand what he was supposed to do on there. That little stinker held it the whole time. I dug out his little potty and set it in the living room and put Cooper in underwear. And then I pulled out everything I had…

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Another Baby

Hubs was feeding Sawyer a bottle the other day and I made a comment about how cute they looked. Hubs said, “well, this is most likely my last baby so I want to soak it up.” STAB TO THE HEART. In another life I would have had 4 or 5 babies. I love babies. All I ever wanted to be was a mom. I love being pregnant and the excitement of waiting to meet the new love of my life. I love the baby grunts and the smell and nursing and…

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Judgey Eyes

Having a son who doesn’t talk puts a big target on my back. Cooper is different and yet he looks like a completely adorable, average boy. And in most cases he is. You would never know by looking at him that he doesn’t say any words. There are a lot of situations where people stare at us. For example, Cooper does a lot of high picture ‘talking’ in all vowels. Often, it is very loud. If we are at Target or wherever he will point and ‘talk’ away. Usually, he…

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I Give Up

I give up. Simple as that. I had a tough night followed by a tough morning.  And honestly, that makes 10 months of tough nights in a row. My kids don’t sleep. I’m still nursing our youngest and he feels the need to nurse at least twice at night. And Cooper…well, he either sleeps 7-7 like a perfect angel or wakes up 2-3 times a night crying. We have never been able to figure out what the magic potion is. Nightlight, sound machine, Nuk’s, fan, earlier bedtime, later bedtime, etc. He either sleeps or he…

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