Precious as a Prayer

I sit and watch you after you have fallen asleep. 

I am in awe of how much you’ve grown. 

I sometimes mistaken you for your big sisters  (now you weigh the same),  and I pull back with fear. 

You see, sweet child, I have come to terms you will always be my baby. 

I will always protect you and sing you your favorite lullaby in loop mode. 

I will always be there to help you eat your breakfast and remind you the food is hot,  and to use your fork, not your fingers.

It’s just difficult for me to see you physically change from baby, to toddler, to where you lose your baby look and are now a little lady. 

We get more stares now too. 

It is more difficult to lift your 60 pound frame. 

The unknown is scary,  you see you physically don’t fit someone who needs their mom 24/7. 

I come to grips that this is reality.          

In these moments I soak it all in,  your beauty,  your gypsy spirit, your golden smile. 

You see before you were born I sang you a song called ‘Golden” by Lady Antebellum. 

You are golden, precious as a prayer…   

I still sing to you, knowing my non-verbal little lady understands in a different way,  a wave-length the general public can’t understand; and I thank God for giving me this free spirit, this blessing who is as precious as a prayer.

You see sweet lady,  all my worries fade into the sunset and we are ready to do it all over again in the morning.

And at night, I dream of your freckled smile,  and the world is right again. 

 Written by, Erin Maser

I am a mother of four beautiful girls ages 13, 8, 7 and 4. My youngest just happens to be nonverbal autistic epileptic. I am a Title I Elementary teacher in Wyoming. You can follow our story on our blog at Keep room in your heart for the unimaginable.

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