The Stuff I Prayed For

A few years ago, when we started to notice that our other son Sawyer was feeling the unique stresses of having a brother with autism, I started taking him out for breakfast every Wednesday.

No matter what we wouldn’t miss.

It was our time to chat and relax and eat doughnuts! We both looked forward to it.

I remember distinctly thinking…I’ve never done anything like this with Cooper. And I might never.

My son Cooper had never asked me to go anywhere. He was seven years old at the time. And even if he did…going would have most likely not been an option.

He couldn’t walk safely in parking lots. Or sit at a table.

He didn’t eat any foods from restaurants.

He didn’t understand going on a date with mom. Or care really.

Leaving the house for any reason brought on a meltdown. I could go on and on.

It was tough. All we want as parents is to spend time with our kids. And for them to understand and enjoy themselves.

Tonight, I brought Cooper to his Miracle League Baseball Game.

He happily put on his jersey and left the house with me.

He lasted almost the whole game. He hit twice. Ran the bases. And fielded.

He even ‘threw’ the balls back to the pitcher. And he reminded me (a hundred times) that we get a doughnut after baseball games.

So, we went to the store.

We walked in the parking lot. He picked out his treat. We paid. And we sat while he ate. Together. And then we left. All safely. Without a meltdown.

It’s funny. Sometimes I have to pinch myself. It was so hard for so many years.

I know a lot of you don’t believe me. Every day was a challenge. But lately, it’s getting better.

It’s by no means easy. But this is the stuff I prayed for.

I just wanted moments of peace. Moments of joy. I wanted to spend time with my son. I wanted him.

I hope these posts help the parents that are struggling. I was you.

Hang on. I promise it gets better.

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