God Still Hears Her
I have four kids and I love being a mom, all my kids are so unique and loved! But from the moment I got pregnant with my first child, I felt God let me feel his heart for my daughter in a extra special way.
I felt like she was a worshipper and her heart was going to be connected to God in a super special way.
I have a memory when I was in the beginning of labor with her,
I looked up after a contraction to see tears in my husbands eyes.
He said “today of lover of God will be born” his words surprised me because it was what I had been feeling so strongly.
Fast forward 6 months and our perfect beautiful baby girl began to have multiple seizures a day.
Leading to the diagnosis of a genetic condition. Then a couple years later…Autism.
My daughter is now 7. The pain of what was lost had been so great at times. But my daughter sure makes it a lot easier.
I mean she has autism and with that the meltdowns and all that comes with it. But she is an absolute joy!
She has such a beautiful heart, and finds joy in the simplest things. Like wind and hugs.
When Eisley was 2, I had twins. It was the hardest time in my life.
Eisley was having seizures and my twins were colicky. I remember feeling (although I would have never admitted it) like I had failed Eisley by choosing to have more kids.
Like I wasn’t able to be there for her, and it hurt so bad inside.
Fast forward to today and I feel like the best thing I have ever done for Eisley was to give her Anna, her sister.
Anna loves Eisley and bonds with her in a way only a sister could.
She also makes Eisley do more things than Eisley ever wants to do, but it’s so good for both of them.
Every word Eisley says, every accomplishment she makes, Anna is there to catch it and tell me about it.
Today after dropping Eisley off at school,I began to pray with my younger 3 before I started school with them. I was telling them that God can hear even the prayers we don’t say out loud because he can hear our thoughts.
Anna smiled and said, ” yeah! That’s good, because Eisley doesn’t know very many words, but God can still hear her!”
I turned away and wept.
My 5 year old daughter’s faith spoke directly to my heart about what I actually believed. Yes! God did hear Eisley!
He invented communication. He understands. He knows what Eisley’s heart is saying, even when I can’t hear it.
God speaks all forms of communication.
Written by, Laura Testerman
I am a stay at home mom of four wonderful kiddos. My oldest daughter is 7. She has a genetic condition called Tuberous sclerosis complex and also a diagnosis of Autism. I also have boy/girl twins, Anna and Isaiah who just turned 5. And last but not least I have a wild child 3 year old named Gwen! Being a mom to them is the best adventure ever, and has changed and molded me in more ways than I ever thought possible.
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